Am I the only one thinking about this?

Hello! - The 1st text message that i received and told myself that i like her.
Good Morning :*- Is the 1st text message i received in the morning and made my day.

then it stopped...

I met this girl in a social networking site. when i first saw her. i said to myself, "WOW, she's my ideal girl" yah, i really said that in my room. as you know my type is very simple, for appearance/look she must have a brace. i don't know why but to me, girls with braces means that they really take care of their teeth, and braces were so cool! i want to have that someday but our family dentist said that i don't need that cause i have a nice set of teeth, he just told me to stop chewing bones of chicken, pork and beef and quit my smoking habits, but i can't help it. i like those things :) 2nd thing is the lips, i don't care wtf is the shape of her lips but if she puts on her red lipstick everything will be perfect. and lastly, the hair, it should be at length of her shoulder and walla! I GOT YOU MY PERFECT GIRL! haha! seriously though, i like her so much on first sight.

I wont tell you all the details how i got her number (seriously, i don't want to brag :D) we exchanged messages on various social networking sites and in mobile phone. I can say we really have shared some connection from there.

then we met, it's saturday afternoon and when i saw her i was mesmerized. she really is my type. hahaha! disregard the braces, length of hair and the lips. yeah, she really is my type. because of her personality. she's too strong at the same time down to earth. she even toured me on her school which is i really didn't know why i walked her down there hahaha!

again we exchanged messages that day, then after a couple of days, it was gone. like a wind passed down on a field of wheat and corn.

I don't know what really happened. Suddenly it just stopped. no but's and no why's. it just stopped.

She told me that she was still waiting until she graduate her degree before she commits into a relationship and i don't want to interfere with that. my plan is to court her after she finish her studies so for now i just want us to be friends. I know some other guys will stand out cause if i wait for that long before i do something someone will get her heart but i don't want to interfere or to change her principle. and i want it to be fair not to brainwash her mind and force her to commit in a relationship.

the thing is, I'm thinking that she's mad at me. why? i don't know. and it sucks. we really stopped communicating with each other. AND IT'S NOT EASY, I'M GOING CRAZY! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME?! hahaha! :P (a line from somedaydream's song christmas in purple)

seriously though, It's hard for me cause i really like this girl but i don't know what happened to us. at first i thought she was just testing and playing some girl's mind games with me but as the days passed by, it's getting worst.

I really assumed that she like me too because of the topics and the conversations we had in the past days. but now, i think she.. oh well, maybe i need to move on? am i being a loner or nerd? hahaha! ahh shoot, i just want to let this one out so that i can focus on my work and the things i need to do. cause i really think of this everyday. hahaha!

anyway it's another year. let's start this year right, shall we? :) HAPPY NEW YEAR!