BB friend. Social media sucks

it's like the old days, when someone posted something on the net. gives me a link. searched something in particular. read it, found out that she wrote something about how we hanged out. deja vu? hahaha! twitter. I'm not safe there anymore. hahaha! that was the time when i was out of luck. the day when i broke up with my ex. never thought that she likes to hangout with me. but that's so much in the past right now. didn't want an intimate relationship anymore. just hanging out with someone is "a okay" with me. I'm not saying that's it's too late right now. I just don't want to commit. why? because it will take so much of my time. right now i can do pretty much whatever i want. i can go everywhere, anywhere, wherever and whomever i want to be with. that's what's great in being a loner. being alone with someone who's not thinking that we'll have that relationship, a friend who will be there whatever i do. but that will end today. because of that blogpost. it ruined everything. It's not that i don't want to hangout with her anymore. I just want things to cool down, to fade out. I really don't want someone falling for me right now. I don't want someone to fall with me. It changes everything. we can't talk freely if that happens. that's how eff' up my setup is. if someone falls, I'll say goodbye. that's it. yeah i know i'll be an ahole, a dbag and an effin' cunt but that's how i arranged it. I told them what i want and what can i do in the first place. as of now no one last that long. they really get out of track, they get lost in what i'm doing for them, they fall. and for that I'm very sorry. I'm writing this because i felt bad of what will happen to us. i don't want to do this again for a friend. but i must. i really feel bad about what will happen to us. but things will get awkward from this on. I'll stay away from her, ignore her text messages and calls, her fb messages and twitter dm's. everything. so this is goodbye. sorry for this. but i have to stay away to you from now on. I wont say this to you in person cause i'm too pussy and it will be hard to say it to you. this is all i can do. sorry again. SORRY.