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Stalking? No! More Like Admiring

Well, wth is a stalker?

from wiki:
Stalking can be defined as the willful and repeated following, watching and/or harassing of another person. Most of the time, the purpose of stalking is to attempt to force a relationship with someone who is unwilling or otherwise unavailable. Unlike other crimes, which usually involve one act, stalking is a series of actions that occur over a period of time.

from dictionary.reference.com
1. a person who pursues game, prey, or a person stealthily.
2. a person who harasses another person, as a former lover, a famous person, etc., in an aggressive, often threatening and illegal manner: Hollywood stars often have security guards to keep dangerous stalkers at bay.

from world english dictionary:
stalk 2 (stɔːk)

— vb
1. to follow or approach (game, prey, etc) stealthily and quietly
2. to pursue persistently and, sometimes, attack (a person with whom one is obsessed, often a celebrity)
3. to spread over (a place) in a menacing or grim manner: fever stalked the camp
4. ( intr ) to walk in a haughty, stiff, or threatening way: he stalked out in disgust
5. to search or draw (a piece of land) for prey

— n
6. the act of stalking
7. a stiff or threatening stride

[Old English bestealcian to walk stealthily; related to Middle Low German stolkeren , Danish stalke ]

'stalker 2

from a normal person like me:
Admiring a person that I don't have the strength and confidence to talk to. Actually I have been going to this girl's profile page, even though I cannot see her updates because her account is on private mode, I still go to her profile and I have been getting info on her friend. I think it's not stalking, It's more on getting to know the person well before we start to go out. I met her in my friends party last saturday. and she's so damn hot, for me. we talked almost everything that night but I didn't get her number, why? cause that's how I do things, I let them think that I'm not into them at first, then talk to them as much as possible by exchanging messages on Facebook and Twitter. after that they'll eventually give their number (Isn't that sweet? :D). It's a kind of a long shot but they'll be drawn to you more, they'll be intrigued on your mystery type of personality you have. cause women loves the chase. yep, the "chase" but it's off topic right now. anyway, what I'm trying to tell is that what I'm doing is not stalking. hahaha!

so damn cute!!

I hate liars, hypocrites, & people who take advantage of people who care about them.

♥♥♥♥ !!!!MIKA!!!! ♥♥♥♥

just my type :)

Alam ko na
Magaling lang ako sa umpisa
Umasa ka pa sa akin
Mga pangakong nauwi lang sa wala
Nasayang lang ang iyong pagtitiyaga
Wala ka nga pala
At puro lang ako salita
Kaya pala
Pag-gising ko wala ka na..

I'm happy for her, but she's not happy for me..

kung puro utak, di ka magiging masaya. Kung puro puso, hindi mo magagawa ang tama. Kaya dapat, sensible balancing of both :)

Ang tunay na kaibigan, kahit galit na sila dahil nagpapakatanga ka, nandyan parin sila.

just let me catch you dL..

Isang Mabilis: Happy

Bigla ko na lang naramdaman, masaya pala ang buhay ko ng lumayo ako. I've learned to appreciate things around me. lam mo yun. yung tipong everytime na may mag memessage sayo nakakapagusap kayo ng maayos di katulad dati na sobrang saglit ko lang silang nakakausap at nakakasama. di ko naman pinaikot mundo ko sa kanya pero syempre. minsan lang kami magkita at magkausap. why not do the best out of it diba? pero dahil naglayuan nga kami, naging maluwag mundo ko. I realized that I really have so much spare time. nakapagfreelance pa nga ako. at iwas stress na din. although I'm missing her so much right now, masaya naman ako. I'm happy being alone again. alone as in alone. not loner, I'm just alone. marami din akong nakilalang tao ngayon. dati dami kong iniiwasang lakad. masaya. sana masaya din siya ngayon. kasi masaya ko. unfair naman kung di siya masaya diba? ayun.

isang mabilis:areyoumak

Maybe, Maybe not Part ONE

Hmm.. as you can see, I easily get bored. from everyday routines to unexpected getaway with my friends, recently I've been busy at work, doing articles that I really didn't and can't Imagine that I'll be doing for the rest of my life. but I have no choice. It's the field of work I'm into.

These articles keeps me busy from getting bored everyday. I can write things for a certain niche in a couple of hours leaving my thoughts away for awhile. but these past few days something bugged me a lot. these recent incident with my ex. When I'm going home after shift I was standing at the bus stop. as you know I'm the type of guy who likes to observe things from far places, I keep on looking at this certain chick that I saw at the other side of the road. yep, she's my type. with my birds eye view nothing can escape. hahaha! and as the chick gets near, I'm getting these flashbacks behind my head then the word "IF" keeps ringing on my mind.

What If....

I realize something is wrong with me. I met and dated a couple of girls these past few months after we broke up. nothing really last that long. It's more of a Hohol (hangout, hangout lang) and Momol (Make out, Make out lang). and what I'm looking for is a bond that will last, but it really is a fast pace kind of a getting to know each other then i get bored and let go of them that easily. i told myself that there really is a problem with me after reflecting on my thoughts.

the problem with me is i keep on saying that I don't want a commitment, i just want a partner, someone that will never let me down and someone that i can count on. but it really isn't what i wanted. what i wanted was her. all i really wanted was to be with her again, just for the last time.

I just want to talk with her for the last time. we need to catch up and patch things up before something drastically bad happens. a worst case scenario, a devils incarnation, end of the world or armageddon comes.

wtf.. what I'm really trying to say is that i keep on pretending that i have forgotten all of what we had shared and i really never had moved on for a year and a month. I don't know why but she keeps on poping in my head. i even had a dream with her.

I really don't know what to do now and i have been getting these thoughts of "what if's"

what will happen next? Maybe I don't want to know. or maybe not. I really don't know what to do now. now that i know why am i acting like a douche and a jerk to every person i met. wtf.

this would be the part one.. i have many unexpected encounters with her these past few days so bear with me.. hhaha! ;P

Am I the only one thinking about this?

Hello! - The 1st text message that i received and told myself that i like her.
Good Morning :*- Is the 1st text message i received in the morning and made my day.

then it stopped...

I met this girl in a social networking site. when i first saw her. i said to myself, "WOW, she's my ideal girl" yah, i really said that in my room. as you know my type is very simple, for appearance/look she must have a brace. i don't know why but to me, girls with braces means that they really take care of their teeth, and braces were so cool! i want to have that someday but our family dentist said that i don't need that cause i have a nice set of teeth, he just told me to stop chewing bones of chicken, pork and beef and quit my smoking habits, but i can't help it. i like those things :) 2nd thing is the lips, i don't care wtf is the shape of her lips but if she puts on her red lipstick everything will be perfect. and lastly, the hair, it should be at length of her shoulder and walla! I GOT YOU MY PERFECT GIRL! haha! seriously though, i like her so much on first sight.

I wont tell you all the details how i got her number (seriously, i don't want to brag :D) we exchanged messages on various social networking sites and in mobile phone. I can say we really have shared some connection from there.

then we met, it's saturday afternoon and when i saw her i was mesmerized. she really is my type. hahaha! disregard the braces, length of hair and the lips. yeah, she really is my type. because of her personality. she's too strong at the same time down to earth. she even toured me on her school which is i really didn't know why i walked her down there hahaha!

again we exchanged messages that day, then after a couple of days, it was gone. like a wind passed down on a field of wheat and corn.

I don't know what really happened. Suddenly it just stopped. no but's and no why's. it just stopped.

She told me that she was still waiting until she graduate her degree before she commits into a relationship and i don't want to interfere with that. my plan is to court her after she finish her studies so for now i just want us to be friends. I know some other guys will stand out cause if i wait for that long before i do something someone will get her heart but i don't want to interfere or to change her principle. and i want it to be fair not to brainwash her mind and force her to commit in a relationship.

the thing is, I'm thinking that she's mad at me. why? i don't know. and it sucks. we really stopped communicating with each other. AND IT'S NOT EASY, I'M GOING CRAZY! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME?! hahaha! :P (a line from somedaydream's song christmas in purple)

seriously though, It's hard for me cause i really like this girl but i don't know what happened to us. at first i thought she was just testing and playing some girl's mind games with me but as the days passed by, it's getting worst.

I really assumed that she like me too because of the topics and the conversations we had in the past days. but now, i think she.. oh well, maybe i need to move on? am i being a loner or nerd? hahaha! ahh shoot, i just want to let this one out so that i can focus on my work and the things i need to do. cause i really think of this everyday. hahaha!

anyway it's another year. let's start this year right, shall we? :) HAPPY NEW YEAR!