i'm used to be awake at night time. i maybe a nocturnal person cause i'm very active at night. i hangout with my friends at their house, i chill in the most diverse places here in manila and stay awake while watching tv till sunrise. but when i experienced it while working i can say that time flies so fast, so fast that i didn't even noticed that it's the end of my shift. then i realized that it's just like a day shift but you can't go to any place except for fast foods and 24/7 convenient stores. i've seen a lot of people hangout at the entrance of our building, smoking, eating and talking to each other, it's like that they don't see each other at their office or maybe they don't talk to each other while working. the best part is when i'm going home. i saw a lot of people. with FRESH FACES! wtf. but all in all i do like to work at that time of the day. i can do anything while working.
and for a fresh brewed coffee that our coffee brewer is making. ahhh that smell.. i wont forget that ! hahaha ! anyway GOOD NIGHT !
i woke up with this feeling of something would happen this day. it's 3:04pm when i woke up. i thought i would not open my desktop today. why? cause i want to do something else. then when i go to our sala, i saw my people in the room. yep, they are my people. cause i'm the king in the house, hahaha ! they've been talking about life's hardships, and they've been crying. wtf! crying. my tita told me that i must find a suitable partner, someone who will understand me for everything that i'm doing. she knows how broad my mind is so she said that get someone who's broader than me in thinking. i don't know why she said that but i don't care. then my friend texted me, she's been angry with me, i wont tell what's the cause. then i plead my innocence to what crime i did. but it's no use. so there it goes. i got irritated today. wtf. so i opened my desktop which is not in my plan today. when i was browsing the web and my fb page i'm noticing everything. from the school that my friends went in, what did they took up on college to the career path they've chose. wtf.. why do you get am I.T. program course and end up working in a hotel? why? wtf. then i saw tumbler. yep i do blogging. but i don't get what's the point in re-blogging on tumbler? why don't people using tumbler take their own picture and post it on tumbler? why re-blog? why? then my big sister came, looking for my psp. i didn't saw my psp for a week and she's been using that these past week. so i get mad and told her not to use my gadgets anymore.(sorry ate i didn't mean to yell at you, SORRY! :D) then i saw our monthly bill. wtf, why did they just give it to me today when my money is budgeted only for 2 weeks in the office? wtf.. and all of that happened in just an hour. wtf! what's happening to me? WHATS HAPPENING TO ME?! I've got so many dispute in myself today!
people think that i blog because i just want someone to notice me. nope, i blog because i love to write things. if you're gonna go to my fb page "facebook.com/8thsin" you will see that i've been updating my status every minute.. why? because i want to tell something. it's my way for a feel good experience. whenever there's something troubling my mind i express myself verbally and vocally. why? because i want to let it out inside of me. if i just sit down and don't tell what i want to say i'll just blow up and nothing can stop me if i go on berserk mode. even my mom want me to tell her whats bothering me. why? cause she knows that if i kept those inside of me ill just tell all my problems are and believe me, i have so many problems than an ordinary single person have. i blow up and i don't care if the person whom im telling my problem might be offended or what. it's just me. so bear with me. that's why i decided to create my own blogsite. why? to release my stress. to have a freedom of expression and not offend others.
that's all.. and just so you know.. i dont want to be played or whatsoever. i dont like people who take advantage on other people. i've experienced it and yes it is very annoying. arghh !
i have been thinking of having a new pet. it's been a year since i got chico, my dog and she's been very calm these days. she's been doing nothing this past few months and i think she's bored. i did everything i could so that she wont feel bored in our house but it's useless. so i come up with a new solution. buy a new pet :)
this is my 1st choice. a beagle.
beagle is one of the active dog breeds. he runs, he jumps, he plays and he's adorable. but it needs to be in a cool place. and sometimes it's too active you can't stop him from doing what he's doing. so i tried to search for a possible seller then i come up with this dog breed.
the basset hound.
basset hounds are scent hounds or what they call hunting hounds. they are a breed of dogs that's good for hunting down rabbits. i know he's cute and it's the best pets for children. yeah children. i'm still a kid. only in the inside.. hehe.. so i tried to contact the seller. but i saw something on the exotic section of the site.
the leopard gecko.
i really dont like reptiles. cause they are weird creatures. but i read a section of the forums that you can breed leopard geckos and get a unique and one of a kind color for them. plus it's cheaper than dogs. and you can feed them anything. hehe. so i have made up my mind to breed geckos. and my first gecko. mikko. he's a Mack Snow Snake Eyes Eclipse Leopard Gecko.
mikko is very curious in his new home. he walks across his aquarium and jumps like a big reptile going for the kill. he likes to eat grasshoppers and flies. i tried to feed him cockroaches but he don't like the taste, he puked. hehe. he's so cute and easy to carry. and chico likes him so much he always watch mikko in his aquarium. hehe.
so i have 2 pets now. a brown labrador named CHICO which i love so much and MIKKO a leopard gecko. WELCOME TO THE FAMILY MIKKO :)
I confess, I messed up Dropping "I'm sorry"s like you're still around And I know you dressed up Hey, kid, you'll never live this down
And you're just the girl All the boys wanna dance with And I'm just the boy Who's had too many chances
I'm sleeping on your folk's Porch again, dreaming She said, she said, she said "Why don't you just drop dead?"
I don't blame you for being you But you can't blame me for hating it So say, "What are you waiting for? Kiss her, kiss her" I set my clocks early 'Cause I know I'm always late
Write me off, give up on me 'Cause, darling, what do you expect? I'm just off, a lost cause A long shot Don't even take this bet
You can make all the moves You can aim all the spotlights Get all the sighs and the moans just right
I'm sleeping on your folk's Porch again, dreaming She said, she said, she said "Why don't you just drop dead?"
I don't blame you for being you But you can't blame me for hating it So say, "What are you waiting for? Kiss her, kiss her" I set my clocks early 'Cause I know I'm always late
(Always on, always on) You said you'd keep me honest (Always on, always on) But I won't call you on it (Always on, always on)
I don't blame you for being you But you can't blame me for hating it So say, "What are you waiting for? Kiss her, kiss her" I set my clocks early 'Cause I know I'm always late I set my clocks early 'Cause I know I'm always late
this is one of the Fall Out Boy's song that hits me bigtime.
the title a little less sixteen, a little more touch me is originally called or titled "A little less Molly Ringwald, A little more Samantha Fox" Molly Ringwald is from the movie "Sixteen Candles" F.O.B.'s favorite movie and Samantha Fox is the singer that sang the song "Touch Me"
the song is about teenage romance. the boy is too sweet, caring, and always act cute with his girl (a little less sixteen) but can't do anything in front of the girl that's why he had to be more aggressive (a little more touch me). he messed up with her girl and want to fix thing with her but it's to late cause the girl don't want to (i confess, im messed up dropping "I'm sorry's like you're still around") he probably messed up their date or something important to them (and i know you're dressed up hey kid, you'll never live this down).
the girl is too much popular or other guys wants to be with her (you're just the girl all the boys wanna dance with) that's why he always backs out if he had a chance cause he's scared if he did something wrong (i'm just a boy who had too many chances). he messed up with her because he's very careful of his actions and he want's to make amends that's why he sets a date or he goes to where she might pass by (I'm sleeping on you're folks porch again, dreaming) but she doesn't want to fix everything with him and avoids him because she's too angry for what happened to them (she said, she said, she said, why don't you just drop dead).
he hates and didn't like what the girl's attitude or what she's doing but he accepted the fact that she's like that cause he can't do anything about it (I don't blame you for being you but you can't blame me for hating it) but he wants to fix it so he thinks that if he kissed her while they were arguing it will be alright again (so say, "what are you waiting for" kiss her, kiss her) but realized that it's too late, if he had just did it in the first place everything will be back to normal and will be alright again with them, if he had just did it that time. (i set my clocks early cause i know i'm always late).
so he wants her to forget him because he's not like what other guys do, he's playing too safe because he doesn't want to be a fool in front of her (write me off, give up on me cause, darling, what do you expect?)cause he's still learning what to do for them and thinking what should he do if she's like that. he's still observing her actions and thinks what would he do if she gets angry or mad. he wants to be with her forever but he's still adjusting for her. (I'm just off, a lost cause. a long shot dont even take this bet) she can do anything and everything cause she's popular, she can always find someone for her but he can only look at her and sigh because he's so sorry and wants to fix everything (you can make all the move you can take all the spotlights, but i get the sighs and the moans just right).
it's been raining in a week here in cavite and as usual, with my type of personality when it rains, it's harder to get up in the bed. yeah, i know everybody's having a hard time getting up in the bed and for me it's a burden.
when it's cold my stomach aches, my mood changes and the only thing i want to do is have a hot coffee in a cup but i can't cause i have a problem with my stomach.
this morning i woke up at 7am in the morning. i hear the raindrops falling in my roof and my kapitbahay doing their laundry. then i asked myself, how the hell did they get up this morning?
why can they get up in their beds? how can they do that?
thinking an answer to that i fell asleep again.
then i woke up because my alarm's ringing. it's 8am that time and i felt like i need to get up but my body's not responding.
is this the rainy day syndrome? you can't get up, you cant think of anything and you fell asleep thinking of nothing.
today i've been browsing my fb profile. while i was browsing i saw my ex's post and comments. yeah this might be so emo but i need to tell someone about this.
there's this post that she told me that she's tinatamad magtext. i told her that we should just go to skype for us to talk but she insisted not to. yeah i know that's bullshit that your girl dont want to talk to you, that means she's not that into you. yeah.
what really pisses me off is that i think i did all i can and give her my all but it looks like she does not appreciate it at all.
why do you girls do that every time? you really piss guys so often and don't even admit what you have done? then don't even appreciate what we have done for you girls. i might offend girls but that's really what is happening in a relationship, or she's just like that?
i really don't get it. she never texted me or replied to my text. when she texted or contacted me she needs something from me. wtf?! that sucks. hahahaha. bigtime.
i got over it but it flashed back to me when i saw that post.
damn. it hurts. hahahaha ! but that's in the past.
i moved on. i just remembered everything she have done to me.
hahaha ! that's all. i just need to write this, i dont want to suppress my feelings. cause it will hurt more. haha..
